I find myself continuing to grow more and more restless in this small town I’ve been living in. I abandoned all of my toxic friendships and left somewhere that left me coming home with deep misery. I decided that time is not in control of me, I am. I will not let the clock decide when my life starts, who says I must? I grew three ages older in six months and my life has taken a sudden turn because of it. People may look down and scorn because what I did is not the “usual”. But I do not care; when have I ever been known to go the normal route in anything? This is what makes me happy, and if setting my life back one year will help progress it miraculously in two then I am all for it. I will write better than I have ever written and I will capture beauty in my lens like no one has ever expected. I will not take one minute to rest, because after 4 years of being sad I am finally out. My life has been jump started and I could not possibly describe the feeling of being awake once again to you because I’m not sure I even know how to feel it. I am me and I will not spare any moment to share that with the rest of the world. I cannot wait to help everyone who has ever hurt me see what greatness they have encouraged inside of me. I’m ready to be myself. I am happy and I will forever continue to be so.
I’ve been on the road with my sister for the past two weeks in search of beautiful places. We’ve gone all over Oregon and Northern California, seeing some of the most amazing lakes, mountains, rivers, beaches, and forests. The world is so full of beauty. Allow nature to fill you up when you feel loneliness or fear. We are all so lucky to live on such a beautiful planet.